Inspirational Quotes

Quote of the day!

[ Don't be afraid to reach for your dreams. Do it while you can. Nothing will ever happen if you don't make a first move. So seize the opportunity while you can ]

Life seems so shaky, with good & bad days.
But sometimes the bad days seem to arise from within me.
Not a bad day in reality, but in my head, so many wars are going on.
Pressure of not being as good as others,
Regrets of the time wasted not doing something i love,
Lack of courage to pursue what I enjoy,
Feeling useless to the world,
With no great achievements.

I wonder what put those thoughts in my head.
Thoughts that can destroy me from within if not carefully handled.
But then, those thoughts can be motivational when perceived in an optimistic way.
I realised I wanna be different
I wanna overcome my lack of courage and go out there to do things i love.
I have to overcome my fear of failure.
I can't let this fear hold me back.
No I won't let that happen.
I wanna be free from fear of failure.
And I wanna grow old and one day look back thinking,
"I have no regrets of my past"

As a reminder to myself~

Missing you~

Thank you for telling me I look beautiful when I think I'm not

Just by the way you look at me, I feel special & beautiful

Thank you for lifting me up from my low self esteem

Without you I wouldn't be as happy as I am now

Thank God He blessed me by sending you

To tell me I look beautiful everyday

To tell me I can be myself

And still be loved

Thank you!

Little Imperfections

Nobody is perfect. Ever. Agree?

When it comes to appearances, most of us are usually quite concious about it. I mean, who isn't?

But is there a time in your life you wished u look prettier? or taller? slimmer? smoother skin? etc...the list goes on..

I'm pretty sure most people been through that. And honestly i'm no exception. I've been through the insecurities of how i look, my hair, face, everything about me!

But after awhile i started to realise, God created me this way, why am i always wanting more?

I should be thanking God for eyes to see, hands to hold, legs to walk, etc.. this list goes on and on too! And in fact, this list goes on longer than the list of our imperfections that we see.

Do you know that any imperfections you see on yourself is just only ur negative perception of urself? You make hate ur straight hair, but others, love it! You may think ur too dark, but others may think you look great!

So don't be too hard on yourself. Being happy and content with what you've got, yeah this will definately make u a prettier person :) just a smile and a happy heart can make you look beautiful and sparkling :) So show those sparkling teeth, like this =D

To add on, i believe every imperfection we have makes us special as who we are =) I was looking through a magazine when i saw the pictures of Miss Universe and the runner ups. No doubt they look beautiful and stunning, I love the way they look.

But one thing i realised, is that generally they all have almost the same look. Straight, pearly white teeth, beautifully curled hair, nice body shape and all.

So you might think your freckles make u look weird, but no, i think they make u special as being you!

We need to learn to love ourselves and stop comparing with others. Yes i do still get very insecure about how i look sometimes. But i keep reminding myself that God created me this way and He loves me so much.

See the beauty of God's creation? Perfection in our imperfection.

People judge by outward appearance,but the Lord looks at the thoughts and intentions

1 Samuel 16 : 7

Signing off,

Yie-ern :)

Back to Blogging!

Its been ages ever since i last posted something here... I realise my writing skills have deteriorate terribly since i havent been writing down my emotions much.

The only thing i write about now? Essays on the human body, scientific reports, etc...Feels like thats the only thing i'm used to writing about.

I don't wanna lose touch to how to express my emotions through words, but don't get me wrong, i do still express them through facial expressions and verbal expression :) I just need to learn how to jot them down again.

Looking back to my older posts, i realise i loved to write emo poetic stuff!! Its great looking back on m life :) Now i know my past mistakes and how i used to be. But i guess people change in time, its whether for the better or worst. I'm happy to say that i'm more positive now than before, all thanks to God who changed me inside out :)

And not forgetting my family and friends whom God has blessed me with :)

I'll end this with my favourite quote;
Count your blessings! Don't worry about what you don't have but be happy with what you've got :)

Cheers!
Yie-Ern

Ps: i Dont know if i'll continue writing or this might be a dead blog once again! Depends on my mood la ;)

Lost

Everything else fades
Turned into memories I don't want to remember
Everything changed
But my love for you stays
And I wonder why
Why am I still hurting?
I thought I moved on
Didn't I?



I don't want it, but I want it too
What is it that I want?
Going back to you means more pain
Everytime you leave, my heart breaks



Letting you go also hurts
But I know its what I should do
Still, why is it so hard to walk away from you?



The fact is, I want you, but I don't want you too.
So what do I do?



So many times I wanna run straight back into your arms
But I keep reminding myself
That you'll only cause more pain
So bear with it now
For time would heal
Wouldn't it?
Cause now it seems like the wounds won't heal



My friends tell me I deserve better
I deserve someone who loves me much more
Someone who won't just walk away



Oh why did you walk away?
Why did you throw away your very last chance?
Why did break your promise I held so closely to myself?
Didn't you know I was serious,
When I said I won't tolerate you doing this AGAIN?



But when you came back
With a simple sorry
It hurts me even more
To say I can't do it anymore
Because I love u dearly
I miss everything that used to be
I want you, but I don't want you too



This is how it feels like
To turn down the one you love
You probably didn't think it hurts
But it kills me inside
Until today I still feel it.



But...
How many times did you have to walk out on me?
How many times do you wanna break me?



Cause now,
I would have to pick up the broken pieces
And fix it back together
One piece at a time.



The tears would stop eventually
The pain will fade as well the love
By then, you won't have any control over me
No more.

Environmental Management Field Trip

Just a short one

Went for this field trip about 2 weeks back if i'm not mistaken.

Special thanks to Steven for the gorgeous pics =)

First went to Kelana Jaya Lake to catch fish and insects using the nets.

Thats Dr Kathy, our env lecturer =)

The lake was soooo polluted.. typical i guess..

Eddy trying to fish something.

Then went to Gombak Forest, hiked down to the river. The water was cool and refreshing =)

Eunice was 'lucky' to be the only one who got a leech attached to her xD Just love her reaction.

And she got stuck in the river cos the current was alil too strong for her. Then a frog kinda jumped in her direction when she was trying to balance herself xD It was hilarious..

Wheee, that's us =]

Managed to catch some weird bugs that live in the river:

After the whole trip I drove Eddy and Jolyn to 1U.

On the way back I got lost.

But found my way back after a few rounds x)

Lotsa love,

=)

Walk away

Love doesn't walk away, people do

Smile...

Feeling kinda happy now, I'm not sure why.
Its been awhile since i last feel this relieved and calm.
Maybe its because of the smses I received, from beloved friends.
And all the time I taken off to be alone.
And most importantly, the love and assurance God provided me
Made me strong enough to face each day

Thinking back to the times you were there

I realised

That you were always there

Whether I'm at my happiest, or at my worst

You never seem tired of me

Never gave up on me

And I wonder why

I deserve a friend like you

A friendship so rare,

So precious, like diamonds

But to me,

You're worth more than that

Cause a friendship like ours

Is priceless

And everlasting I pray.

Yeap S.W, this is for you.

And to another friend

My bestfriend since college

Its been only a year plus

But I know I found my best friend

After years of wondering

Why others never seem to completely know me

The way you do.

Through busy schedules

You squeeze in time for me

No matter how tired you are

Its always others first

And yourself last

And once again

I wonder

What you see in me as a friend

Cause when i look at myself

I see nothing special

While you're way better

In everyway.

Pretty sure you know who you are

Yeah, I love you too.

Still have a few more friends to go.

But I'll save that for later.

Cause I prefer shorter but sweet posts.

I'm off to finish my biotech essay. Got so much work to do!

Thank you Dear Lord, for everything I don't deserve.

=]

1st Week of Uni [second sem] =)

Candid shot of me

Gotta admit there were alot of emoing during this whole week, but still, the happy moments were also present =]

Let me go through each day briefly. For my own reference =]

Monday;
First day of the 2nd sem!! Woke up early, made sure i have breakfast AND coffee x) Haven't been sleeping and eating well lately, but i'm coping.

Oh ya. Jeremy, Charles, Huey Lin and I (plus a few others) attended prayer meeting at 7.15am near the green house. Kinda refreshing =)

And here's the list of subjects i'm taking, ranked from 1 to 4 [1 for my fav] =P

Environmental management [1]
Biology [2]
Chemistry [3]
Biotechnology [4]

First day was alright. Though I somehow felt i needed some time alone.

Tuesday;
Classes ended early, so we went sunway piramid to celebrate Charles's birthday in advance =]



Ate at Zan mai i think x) its some japanese restaurant.



Jeremy caught a fly with a tissue x) Then Charles started experimenting his photography skills with the fly!


Then went for karaoke =)


The funniest part was when the guys were trying to sing 'poker face' by Lady Gaga xD
But otherwise, it was fun, and rather emoing i must say, judging by the number of emo songs we sang.

Wednesday;

The most emo day would be today. I have no idea why, but i think its because i'm so tired of faking smiles and pretending i'm happy. I am happy at times, but i need alot of time. And people who understands that i rather stay quiet at times. I'm really sorry. I just need time to recover.

I remember answering a friend's question (i forgot what the question is) I told her that i get lonely at times as well. She was shocked I told her that, and she said, " What?? You also get lonely mer? But you're always around friends and you seem so happy"

There's nothing wrong thinking that way. My point is that being around alot of friends doesn't make you less lonely. In fact, to me, the more friends I have, the lonelier I get, the more smiles I have to fake, the more tired of life i get. What's wrong with me?? I feel so fake. So much pretending that I don't even know myself anymore.

But I let it all out that night.

Thursday;

Felt much much better today after last night. Went to uni with a genuine smile =) heee.

But before leaving house today, I got chased by a huge (larger than the size of my hand) moth! I was terrified till I couldn't leave house cos it was standing at my doorway! lol, And i was wondering if I should call jeremy up to chase it away or i'l just have to skip classes cos I'm really really afraid of it. And I hope I didnt wake my neighbours cos i was screaming when it flew towards me, lol =P

Suppose to meet Seng wai since monday till now, didn't manage to because my friends decided to drive to ss15 (near Taylors) for pork balls noodles that takes 30 mins to arrive due to its popularity x)
Had to split into 2 tables cos the group was too big. Overall it was an awesome day, had so much fun =)

Went back for Biotech tutorial. Eddy embarrassed me when he said my name out loud when he saw a picture of a kitten in the video we were watching for biotech. Not to mention it was in a lecture hall where everybody was quiet. Just because I was playing with a stray kitten during lunch x) I was praying the lecturer didn't hear him. He did that again during environmental management lecture -.-

Then after class Evie drove me to Tropicana Mall. We both watched the latest Harry Potter movie! It was super cool, and i loved it.. especially since they were quite a few cute guys in the movie x) Haha, and Evie and I managed to hide my ice cream (coned) in my bag while entering for the movie, lol!

Friday;

Hmm, today was ok. Not too happy, not too emo in uni. Though at home its mostly emoing. By the end of this week my 'homework' list is piling up like crazy! Its driving me nuts and i'm getting nervous.

Tomorrow; [saturday]

lol. Today havent happened yet. But a quick overview of what we're gonna do.

I would be driving Jeremy to Eddy's place, then we'll take a bus to Petaling Street, where we'll meet Jolyn and Chia May =)

Haha, MY FIRST TIME driving a friend ALONE without my parents by my side!!! =D I'm so excited!! Don't worry, I already warned Jeremy that I tend to day dream while driving x)

So yea, for my record,

First outsider I drove with parents around - sis's boyfriend
First Friend I'l be driving without parents around - Jeremy Ng!
=D

I thank God for this week. For all the pain and joy I went through, I know it''ll be put to good use in the future.

With much love,
Yie-Ern

Breathe

Taylor Swift feat. Colbie Caillat

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,

Cause no one of us thought it was gonna end that way.

People are people and sometimes we change our minds.

But it’s killing me to see you go after all this time.

Music starts playin’ like the end of a sad movie,

It’s the kinda ending you don’t really wanna see.

Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down,

Now I don’t know what to be without you around.

And we know it’s never simple never easy.

Never a clean break, no one here to save me.

You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand,

And I can’t,

Breathe, without you,

But I have to,

Breathe, without you,

But I have to.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.

Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.

But people are people,

And sometimes it doesn’t work out,

Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

And we know it’s never simple,Never easy.

Never a clean break, no one here to save me.

You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand,

And I can’t,

Breathe, without you,

But I have to,

Breathe, without you,

But I have to.

It’s two a.m.

Feelin’ like I just lost a friend.

Hope you know it’s not easy,

Easy for me.

It’s two a.m.

Feelin’ like I just lost a friend.

Hope you know this ain’t easy,

Easy for me.
And we know it’s never simple, never easy.

Never a clean break, no one here to save me.

Ohhh

Sorry (oh) Sorry (mmm)

Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)

Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)

Sorry